Clubbing Incidents : One of the Chapters : What m i?

U can say me selfish,
U can say me bad.

What i did was what a friend shud do

Drunk urself is not the only choice
to be in club
to drink
and to celebrate

Limitation is a must

Some say
A friend shudn't care that much
as long as his friend is happy.

But i disagree.

What If everytime u hang around,
all u can see is ppl around u
ppl who u cares
just kneel down n throw up
mostly everytime?

How will u feel?

And It will be not as easy as u say

not to care
n not to advice
just keep ur fingers on ur own phone's key.
and pretending not to see what happening?

What m i?
If i cant do what a friend shud do?

The Light

Been thru so much joy n also so much hurt
Do u think i can possible to love someone in such a short time again?

I've been a fool for so many time,
Not blaming again,
Of cos,
I also hurt someone i love so much before,
because of my jealousy,
and also anxiety..
I love my love to hang around most of time
this is how i feel secured

Love
is an uneasy thing for me

always stress me up
n always tear me apart

Now I'm collecting all the shattered pieces
slowly n slowly
glue it together
cos the environment is too dark

If u able to bring a light
then only i will make the glue-process in high speed~ haha

but so far, none.
so i got plenty of time to work on it
until i found u again

The Light

Ya, it's 1885... Shitty Night~

Fuck is all i can say, after whole day of stupid customers servicing, finally i can get home n rest... before i was gone to my lovely bath, my standing fan was alive... after that, while blowing my hair with my hair dryer.. my god damn standing fan went poof~ DEAD..

What the... it was 11:15pm... what m i gonna do? What can i do? If it was happened yesterday(Saturday) sure i wont going to fuck this n that, cos the hypermarket - Tesco running til 1am...Shit shit shit n shit....now it's already 1:48am.. n i'm still awake.. n warm like hell... yes, i took second bath.. but still fucking same... duh~ hate the weather in Malaysia...

After cursing n all, finally i can get to calm a bit then i prepare myself a glass of cold choc, a pack of biscuits, n start to write a blog to complaint bout my shitty night... not long ago, my fucking housemate bang n damaged his fucking door.. pissed~!! of cos, cos if he doesn't fix that, our deposits will be "bye bye"... OK, fuck him~ Now all i can think about is, how m i going to survive tonight.. then i went Google search for some bed time story~ n the story was about electric fan~

The very first fan was created in year 1886, ha ha.. n felt like, I'm living in fucking year 1885... yes, right b4 the fan was created..

How can people stand their nights without fan before 1886????!!!!!???

Ha ha, at this very moment, suddenly felt like taking this opportunity to thank An American engineer, Dr. Schuyler Skaats Wheeler, who invented the electric fan in 1886 n made this world a cooler place~

p/s : i was trying to look for his picture n his very first electric fan in 1886, but failed to get... sianz... so~ this is it~ Lazy to continue this topic... n kinda happy... finally i get some sleepy-ness~ n it's 2:31am~ ya, fuck the life~ tomorrow still have to work even though i cant sleep without fan... so i better off now try myself hard to get into sleep lu~ hahha~ ciaoz.. n love y'all~

我们的宝贝，小蠻。/ Our baby Princess, Iman

When i see ur smile / 当我见到你的笑容
My Heart really sweeten up / 我的心真的很开心的
Then at the same time, I smile / 跟着，我的脸也微笑起来
And i hardly wait to see you / 真的很想现在就搭飞机去见你
Give u a kiss on ur forehead / 然后亲吻你的额头……
I wonder what reaction will u give me by then.. haha / 在幻想着，那时你会给我什么反应呢？哈
Cry o smile? / 是哭？还是笑？
Really can't wait to see u~ / 真的很迫不及待了～

Man~, she really have my sis look~ haha so cute~ Especially the way she stare~ hehehe / 哇噻，他真的很有我姐的风范～尤其是那瞪人的表情～超可爱～哈哈

近期的我 / Lately

我发觉到 / I feel that..
我变了许多 / I've changed alot
可能人生的不利 / Might be the failures in my life
也有可能岁月的增长吧 / or maybe it's because i'm getting older n older

很多事情都出乎我们的预料 / A lot of things were out of our control

人见多了 / Seeing too many shitty people
对人的看法也不样了 / affected my judgment to everyone


话语 / People's word
我也不会再去多信 / I won't be memorizing them anymore
听过就够了 / Everything will be using my new way to handle, LISTEN n ERASE

教训 / Advice?
更不用多说 / Don't!
我会翻脸给你看 / I'll definitely fuck u off!

最近的我 / Lately
让我自己也捉不着 / I start to doubt
我是谁 / Who m i？
我再也不明了 / But my answer never out.. n i think i should keep this way

A massacre i held

Never knew i would hurt like this,
Even never knew i could hurt someone like this.

At first,
Evrything seems so calm n peaceful.

The next thing i know,
I had a plan to sweep off one person.

And I succeeded.

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There's 2 things in mind.
1) I will not able to be friend with that bitch again.

- Who give a fuck at it? Since he doesn't even have the will to stay as friend. Then why shud i? Now i believe, how much u love someone, n when ur love turned to hate, it will be as much as how u love him. One person's wrath, can be so grateful, when u finally know the reason.

2)I will draw someone i care, sengzzai, the one i mentioned earlier? the author that i never met.. away from me..

- i hang a while.. keep on asking myself... is it worth it? Again n again, i was confused a long time... but then all burst out after the situation get worse.. Then i asked myself again, is it worth it? The answer came out, Yes it's worth it. But it doesn't mean he is a just stepping stone to revenge.... cos i care bout him will getting the same situation i'm having now..

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It's hard for me to decide this, but i took the risk...

Now everything turned out to be exact what happened in my mind, everyone left. The curtain had closed, i din win anything, indeed, i dun plan to win either. I just want everything bout that bitch to end... n neutral my life to back to normal... but not him... I regret, cos i left out one thing,that his happiness... I had killed it... made him left in tears...

But things already a truth, i can't change the history anymore... all i can do is keep watching n watching how his life after this...

All i can do now, is to tell u i'm sorry..

小野猫的本性

小野猫的本性就本来是一个见人就靠过去的。

只要有人稍微对它热情点，
搔搔它的下巴，
它就会对你发娇了。
然后密上他的眼睛，
假装可爱，
加上那对装可怜的眼睛，
有谁不死在他手里？
当你没有利用价值了，
扫扫屁股，
就走人了。
很讽刺吧？
这就是小野猫的本性了。
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接下来，好一个部落格 - “痕”
让我来为你们解答

“我就是扮可怜 我就是装无辜 我就是无理取闹 我就是故意让人注意我

你猜对了 我就是这样 你赢了 狠狠的在我这里种下了一个大疤痕

成功的让对我很重要的两个人 在我们之间留下了大隔膜

七月半 我的报应到了”

你到现在还不肯认罪吧？也对，硬着头皮说自己没罪，人家见你的坚持，就会相信你没罪的了。这是我在一个16岁的女孩身上看到的。别跟我说，你的思想和一个16岁的女孩没两样！

还有呢，别诬赖我，我并不是瞎猜的，而我是有眼看的，还是用我眼泪换来的。

大疤痕？我并没有那么大的本事为你种下那条东西。假如真的有，就当是我为你庆祝关于你被拆穿了吧。

那两个人，你还不是骗我般的为他们说bedtime story吗？

你们的隔膜，与我无关，它是一直都在！因为你不曾赤裸裸的对他们坦白，用真心来对待。你的也并不是报应，而是因果。

最后，你对谁说大家心知肚明？要明的，应该会是你自己吧？

心型拼图

心型拼图完整了

放了哦～

发泄完咯

松啊～

爽

哈哈～

Forgiveness

I'm collecting myself back,

starts from the littlest thing.
Expanding my friends circle,
decreasing my fiend list.

2 little word,
without a "R"
And with a "R"
the meaning is so big difference

I started to understand,
Life is not all about love.
But at the same time,
I'm not giving up on Love.
I'm not a monk~ haha..


The truth is,
When love is lost,
We still go to friends.


Friends are cure to love cuts.
And also companion in lifetime,
and true friends wont hurt us.
although they're not effective enough to fully cure u,
But they always be there when u need someone.
And this is the point i missed..all these while
I keep searching for my perfect match
until i left my friends aside.


then comes the heart breaking scene
made me fall once n once, again n again
then only go to friends.

I laughed at myself at this moment,
now only i know how naive n stupid i m to believe in love is everything.

I'm collecting everything back now
to be a better man in future

And hoping for everyone's forgiveness
for hating them all these while,
and also being mean all the time to them.


And for those who can't accept my apologies
Then sorry again that i can't beg u on my knees for the forgiveness like a dog :)
Because I'm a human :)

123木头人，我输了

星期六，当我和10个朋友在clubbing时纷纷都醉了，有些失踪的时候

你对我诉说，关于你的病情时
什么心情都没了，虽然我们刚刚认识
但是我们很像认识蛮久了的朋友

那时我又再怪上天了
为什么派我们来到这个世界
就不能好好的给我们健康？
那么的吝啬

她很坚强

反而我在抱她的那时
流了一行泪
但是在她没发现之前给擦了
因为我不想被她看到伤心
她有病也活得那么快乐
像我这样的
分手罢了嘛
有什么大不了？
我应该活得更好的



分叉路，再次出现了。
我也选了
我走另一条了
因为我在这里等
日晒雨淋
还是始终被冷对待。。
囊成今天的我


因为没进展
我就责怪自己
屈着屈着
有时还会发很大很大的脾气
就像在同一天
和店的客人
吵到很大
还差点打了起来
连做工的朋友看了都傻眼
哈哈，失礼了啦


可能这次的离开
会是一个很好的教训
并不是我不爱你了
而是我真的很辛苦，很累
我会记得你
会记得这画面
让我记得该怎样去面对下次爱情来的时候


怎样找回我自己？
我想快乐
我真的很想
有谁拥有那些吃了会忘记伤痛变得很快乐的药？
我真的想买


那女生
我看她应该到新加坡了吧
也应该进院了吧

祝你病情快点好起来。
也祝我自己快点好起来。

我姐生蛋了

很多朋友都不知道我家的家姐结了婚，也没太多的人知道我姐怀了孕，连我们也是在他怀胎的第七个多月时才知道的。劲吧？哈哈，因为她了解纸是包不住火的。最后咬着牙根，硬着头皮也终于跟我们说了出来。他，我的姐夫是个马来人。没错，我头先对他不是很有好感的，因为说到尾还不是一个马来人！但是到了第一次接触他的人很nice，又gentleman,还是白白的呢～还蛮帅的～哈哈～还有最重要的是，他有“5c”

credit card
cash
car
condo
career

最好笑的是，我之前还梦见我姐，改名为Fatimah!!!超级难听，在梦里还喊了很大声，“hah!!” 但幸好，我姐和她的丈夫都没有那么“liong”～他们因为蛮喜欢“bewitched”里的女主角的名-Arisa，所以就加上了～她的名现在叫做，Jamie Arisa Ooi Abdullah了。蛮喜欢的～嘿嘿嘿～



这就是我和他们的合照


还有这就是我侄女，小mun，全名Nurul Iman, Iman的意思叫做缘分。



姐，别担心，爸那边，我会摆平的～*因为我们流的都是同样的血！加上，你不是说了吗？他们都很谈得来……可能爸只是一时而已啦～Jamie，Jaszeshing, Jeffrey, Ghabryal & Joseph都是爸妈的的骨肉！切肉不离皮！爱你哦～这就是我今年的最好的礼物～