Whole day in my bedroom, doing nothing but watching stupid movies, then i keep download all sad chinese love songs... n i got no idea where the memories out come, made myself moody... feels like everything seems so fresh... the wounds, n the feelings... seems so new again... i can feel the pain when i touch it... m not making myself pathetic, just, all of sudden i feel my life is a disaster n it's so empty... Life without love, what is that shit? but in the same time, what is shit, if the life u have, is to be with someone who doesn't love u at all?
Lately alot of cheapskit i newly met... n some even hide in my msn list for a long time, all in a sudden come over n asking m i still available? since i just break up not long ago.. n the funny is, i din even try to fool them, o let them stay~ N the funny is, what i did wrong to made u missunderstood? How dare u accuse me for fooling u? All the while i treat u is like a friend.. nothing more nothing less.. but y? y u can say such thing to me? do u know how hurt is it to me? Some even funny... already attached, pls stay attached, dun say u like me o some so~ i'm not a toy o a back up ok?
So i took a deep breath, n think what can made me happy again? I str8 off from computer, n went downstairs to buy 2 pieces of cakes, 2 doughnuts, 6 pieces of mini tarts~.. of coz i'm not a blending machine, i just finished 2 cakes, n 2 mini tarts, save them for tomorrow's breakfast. I bought 2 cakes, bcos i din had any cake for 8th of July, my birthday~~So today is re-celebrating my bday~
*~happy birthday to me~*
But so far, my day havent bcos of 2 cakes n switch to happy mode... Too many things stuck in my mind, feel like my mind is going to burst... How can those who create life, created mine this way?
Lately alot of cheapskit i newly met... n some even hide in my msn list for a long time, all in a sudden come over n asking m i still available? since i just break up not long ago.. n the funny is, i din even try to fool them, o let them stay~ N the funny is, what i did wrong to made u missunderstood? How dare u accuse me for fooling u? All the while i treat u is like a friend.. nothing more nothing less.. but y? y u can say such thing to me? do u know how hurt is it to me? Some even funny... already attached, pls stay attached, dun say u like me o some so~ i'm not a toy o a back up ok?
So i took a deep breath, n think what can made me happy again? I str8 off from computer, n went downstairs to buy 2 pieces of cakes, 2 doughnuts, 6 pieces of mini tarts~.. of coz i'm not a blending machine, i just finished 2 cakes, n 2 mini tarts, save them for tomorrow's breakfast. I bought 2 cakes, bcos i din had any cake for 8th of July, my birthday~~So today is re-celebrating my bday~
*~happy birthday to me~*
But so far, my day havent bcos of 2 cakes n switch to happy mode... Too many things stuck in my mind, feel like my mind is going to burst... How can those who create life, created mine this way?
Is there anyone out sale their happy life? I'm willing to buy it...
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