What it used to be

Dun ever find some excuse for u to say me bad,
Dun ever make another drama to make me fall.

I had it enough.

What i said is truth,
What i did is the only way out without breaking anything.

Now I'm here to speak out loud,
n make it clear
There's no one caused me for holding myself from getting attached again~

the only thing that made me this way is love.
I've lost my faith in love.

I've lost my count on how many failure of love I've made.

Desperation kills.

I don't wanna keep repeating the same incident/failure again.
That's why i keep holding on.

Please accept the fact that we could only be just friends.

Nothing more
Nothing less

Please let what it used to be,
To stay always.

Boring Trip but I had my perfect rest~

At first, i tot it will be a very interesting trip for me~ mana tau~ my sis' house was far far far away from the city, some where before cyberjaya, a place where they call seri kembangan~ wasai~!!

So nvm~ In this trip~ i bought only few things~ A new sun glasses, a new cap, n also few knit wears from SEED~ the spec was so in my mind all the time after my friend's sister showed me at my comment section in friendster~ Of cos it's not the same, n i guess the price will be very different from the one that she showed me, but almost the same la :) N i love it very much~ now only i realized, i love specs~ This is what bought, it's from sg wang~ hehehhe~

how's that? does that make me looks like a handicapped person?LMFAO~*

So move on to the next thing, ok~ at last i reached my sis house~ n met my cute lil baby girl~ Iman~ heheh~ she is so cute~ but so bad la, this uncle ghab, dunno how to hold a baby, so "chor loh" made u cry nia...hahha.... but so nice la, when i see mom, which means her grandma holding her, she was like so manja~ n so baby~ hahah~ n made me flash back when i was young, being held by her, embraced by her, the feeling is so touching... Another thing, i'm so "beh song" la, even my 2nd sis, also know how to hold a baby... mah leh.. me very lame la~ hahha~ bad uncle ghab~ n these are the pics~

The grandma n the grandchild~

The Uncle n the niece~

The Aunt n The niece~


The last day at my sis house was the hardest day, cos have to say good bye to Iman d lo~ then hurriedly snap few more shots from her n also a video~ but so bad the video was unable to post up... so only can show the pictures of her~ :) ~ hehehhe~ Check it~ so cute~ ngek ngek ngek ngek ngek~*

Adorable~

My spec n her mum's~LOL

after sending my mom n sis up to the bus back to Kedah, my hometown~ next stop will be my friend's house n spend 2 days at his home doing nothing~ sweat... hahhaahha...

This is the guy who offer me a bed to sleep, a shelter to hide from wind n rain lo~ thx so much~ hehe~ n he is Dickson a.k.a. Ah Booy

And that is what's up with my KL trip... boring, but i had a long rest, a very long one.. hahhahah, long time din rest lu...~ n it was so amazing~ back to Penang now, n feel energetic~n fully charged~ hahahaha~ Soon i will get my next trip, dunno where, but it will still be in Malaysia~ ahhahah, no money is like that lo~ plus i haven't fully visit every state in Malaysia yet... So~ Malaysia~ here i come~ hehhee~^_^

End of the trip, this was snapped while on the way back to Penang, one of the perhentian in Ipoh.. i guess.. hahha, not sure where was that, cos that time was so dizzy~ hahha

Andrew the freebie~ Giving out free~!!

ok~ this post suppose to upload a week ago~ Just simply dun have the time to write bout this incident bout this lousy loser~ Drama King of MOMO all time~

Incident happened on 14th of August 2008, i think if mistaken, it was 4 in the morning~ Infront of MOMO~

Can u stand it for a loser which is SOOOOOOOOOOO into clubbing with us~ and drunk himselves everytime we get into the club together or without us, it's been times i scold him, and treating him like a trash~ But that loser just dun understand what i mean~ ok~ so that's it, over my limit again~ Then u just have to accept the actions i'm going to make, yes, bingo~ I slap someone again~ i slapped him infront of my friends~ SO? U dun respect us~ then y shud i respect u?

Look at these lame pictures, how do u feel?

What if we switching the position as u r me, how do u feel? He keep doing all these cheap actions, not once~! trust me~! it's everytime he in the club!!~ What he did? What he did? What he did? What he did?

Ok~here u go~ !!!!!!!!!!

1)Lay str8 infront of the club, entrance of the toilet
2)Knocking his head towards the walls, the chairs inside the club
3)The one thing i cant stand is, his act are more cheaper than the street whores, whores, only selling their body for money, n u? giving out free~ How cheap is that?

Haha~ now suddenly, muse came to me~ give me a new name inside my head~ Yes~!!i got new nickname for u, "Andrew the Freebie a.k.a. Drama King"

Labels Or Love, Big hint, big direction for me~

Big hint for my new level of my new life~I've been thinking for a damn long time, keep on searching for new love n keep on flirting n all~ what is fucking wrong with me? M i that desperate? Before this, ya~ m i that horny? Horny hmmm, maybe i'm~ LOL~ Which cat doesn't eat fish? n which guy doesn't get horny? So just like what Fergie advise~ Why we keep on shopping for love instead of shopping for branded stuffs n all? Of cos it's not bout the brandeds, she is talking about taking things slowly instead of rushing into black holes? rushing~They only hurt u at the end~

But in real, i mean the real Branded still sounds better~ Right? hahha~ So i'm taking things slowly~enjoy every moment of my shopping~Winks~~

I personally love this row~ "It's alot of men i know i could get another" which means i know there's a lot of ppl out there, n i know i could get a better one~


And this is the Lyrics i get from lyric-site, if can~ try to understand it~ it might gives u some direction to change the current way u look at L.O.V.E.~ Now presenting u this~ the lyric~

Fergie - Labels Or Love

Shopping for labels, shopping for love
Manolo and Louis, it's all I'm thinking of
Shopping for labels, shopping for love
1, 2
Manolo and Louis, it's all I'm thinking of
1, 2, 3 Turn the lights on.

I already know what my addiction is
I be looking for labels, I ain't looking for love
I shop for purses while love walks out the door
Don't cry, buy a bag and get over it
And, I'm not concerned with all the politics
It's a lot of men I know I could find another.

What I know is that I'm always happy when I walk out the store, store
I guess I'm Supercalifragi-sexy, nothing to be playing with
I love him, hate him, kiss him, diss him, tryna walk a mile in my kicks

[Chorus]
Love's like a runway but which one do I love more?
No emotional baggage, just big bags filled with Dior
Love's like a runway, so what's all the fussing for?
Let's stop chasing those boys and shop some more.
1, 2, 1, 2, 3, Turn the lights on.

I know I might come off as negative
I be looking for labels, I ain't looking for love
But, relationships are often so hard to tame
A Prada dress has never broke my heart before
And, ballin's something that I'm fed up with
I'mma do the damn thing, watch me do the damn thing
Cause I know that my credit card will help me put out the flames
I guess I'm Supercalifragi-sexy, nothing to be playing with
I love him, hate him, kiss him, diss him, tryna walk a mile in my kicks

[Chorus]
Love's like a runway but which one do I love more?
No emotional baggage, just big bags filled with Dior
Love's like a runway, so what's all the fussing for?
Let's stop chasing those boys and shop some more.
1, 2, 1, 2, 3, Turn the lights on.

Gucci, Fendi, Prada purses, purchasing them finer things
Men they come a dime a dozen, just give me them diamond rings
I'm into a lot of bling, Cadillac, Chanel and Coach
Fellas boast but they can't really handle my female approach
Buying things is hard to say
Rocking Christian Audigier, Manolo, Polo, taking photos in my Cartier
So we can't go all the way, I know you might hate it but
I'm a shop for labels while them ladies lay and wait for love

[Chorus]
Love's like a runway but which one do I love more?
No emotional baggage, just big bags filled with Dior
Love's like a runway, so what's all the fussing for?
Let's stop chasing those boys and shop some more.
1, 2, 1, 2, 3, Turn the lights on.

Shopping for labels, shopping for love
Manolo and Louis, it's all I'm thinking of
Shopping for labels, shopping for love
1, 2
Manolo and Louis, it's all I'm thinking of
1, 2, 3 Turn the lights on.

生活学论 - 数学题

1 + 1 是个很简单的数目题
有些人了解之中的原理
有些人却不会

我们的生活里
其实牵连很多数目的formula

假想，每个人的总数是 1 + 1 + 4999
你就是那个先的 1
而第二个 1 就是你的伴侣
而 4999 是在上天规定你在你生命中必须认识的人和朋友
假如有天 1 + 1 +（4998 - 1）
不就是少了一位朋友吗？
不久后，我很肯定
上天
一定会再加回另一个新人
还会比你少去那个人好
最后还是会 4998 + 1 啊

认识的每个人
都会带有不同的课程让你进修
让你成为更好更强的人

Rainy day, 2nd of September, year 2008

Whole day in my bedroom, doing nothing but watching stupid movies, then i keep download all sad chinese love songs... n i got no idea where the memories out come, made myself moody... feels like everything seems so fresh... the wounds, n the feelings... seems so new again... i can feel the pain when i touch it... m not making myself pathetic, just, all of sudden i feel my life is a disaster n it's so empty... Life without love, what is that shit? but in the same time, what is shit, if the life u have, is to be with someone who doesn't love u at all?

Lately alot of cheapskit i newly met... n some even hide in my msn list for a long time, all in a sudden come over n asking m i still available? since i just break up not long ago.. n the funny is, i din even try to fool them, o let them stay~ N the funny is, what i did wrong to made u missunderstood? How dare u accuse me for fooling u? All the while i treat u is like a friend.. nothing more nothing less.. but y? y u can say such thing to me? do u know how hurt is it to me? Some even funny... already attached, pls stay attached, dun say u like me o some so~ i'm not a toy o a back up ok?

So i took a deep breath, n think what can made me happy again? I str8 off from computer, n went downstairs to buy 2 pieces of cakes, 2 doughnuts, 6 pieces of mini tarts~.. of coz i'm not a blending machine, i just finished 2 cakes, n 2 mini tarts, save them for tomorrow's breakfast. I bought 2 cakes, bcos i din had any cake for 8th of July, my birthday~~So today is re-celebrating my bday~

*~happy birthday to me~*

But so far, my day havent bcos of 2 cakes n switch to happy mode... Too many things stuck in my mind, feel like my mind is going to burst... How can those who create life, created mine this way?

Is there anyone out sale their happy life? I'm willing to buy it...

你在我心裡打了死結, 綁住孤單 在我的世界(死結)

離不開的 卻離開
抓不住想抓的愛 怪自己活該

我的未來 你不來
我的故事很無奈 我注定失敗

我們的對話 你悄悄離了線
我們的熱線 今後斷了線
你在線的那邊 那麼遙遠
你說再見 宣判了終點

你在我心裡打了死結
綁住孤單 在我的世界
你帶走的快樂 我沒了知覺
一個人面對每個日夜

你在我心裡打了死結
綁住孤單 在我的世界
找不到你的我 已失去一切
我們的愛已無法脫險 你打了死結

無心傷害卻傷害
空白以後才明白 原來這是愛

你的心我最能猜
你的愛我被淘汰 我注定悲哀

我們的對話 你悄悄離了線
我們的熱線 今後斷了線
你在線的那邊 那麼遙遠
你說再見 宣判了終點

你在我心裡打了死結
綁住孤單 在我的世界
你帶走的快樂 我沒了知覺
一個人面對每個日夜

你在我心裡打了死結
綁住孤單 在我的世界
找不到你的我 已失去一切
我們的愛已無法脫險

你打了死結 你打了死結