刚过的圣诞夜，两年前的圣诞夜。

每个人都有自己的性格吧，而我，总是自己为中心，快乐的季节，却开口大骂两个人，一个应该骂的，所以没什么必要去写什么的。

另一个却因为他一个表情让我性情大变，temperature晋升98度，破口大骂，还差点打起架来。

我自私的一面，却换来了两个人的伤害。

难道每个圣诞日前夕我都必须骂人吗？这个情况让我想起了一个曾经爱我的人在前两年的时候就再次为我那该死的任性。。。我弄她哭了。。。还弄到大家没什么心情的～

现在想起。。我是那么的该死的～哈哈，但是想起来，这一切都是很美的回忆。

The White Roses Garden

Was awaken from sleep by sensing The white roses have changed
and the smell starts to change
then i open my eyes to look for the answer

Weird scene
Some white roses started to turn red n dripping with blood

n what happened to the butterflies?
where r they?

What happened?

Wondering where m i now
I was asleep in the white roses garden
Now i'm awake,
But i cant recognise it anymore
It looks like a maze to me now

Who build all these thick walls while i'm resting?
I start to feel scared
and tried to push down the wall
i feel pain on my palm
my skin was cut opened,
look closely to the walls
it were torns all over.

I shout n shout, asking for help.
But i all can hear is the echo of my voice...

What happened to me?

Sorry for being cruel to you...

On my way back from movies,
On bus sitting next to the window,
staring at the raindrops sliding across the glass.

Here comes something i wanna off talking about.

I thought,
The name that i used to miss so much,
The name i used to care so much,
The name that i used to hurt me so much,
Will never going to hurt o making me tear anymore.

At last the name still comes to me.
Finally shown on my phone screen.

But this time,
Things are so different.
I chose not to argue,
n i chose not to answer the call.

I ignored n ignored,
but the pain inside me is so unbearable..

Seeing your messages,
making me more sad.

I teared in the bus,
And i ignored that stranger who sat next to me.

Tears,
was gliding to my cheeks,
Because i feel your tears.
n at the same time,
all the best memories we had,
starts to rush n replay in my mind.

All i can do now is telling u,
I'm sorry for being cruel this time.
I don't want u to cry,
All i want now is some time.

I love you,
And I still do.

Just simply this time u really hurt me.

And this is the reason I wanna off this relationship for a while,
Making myself clear.

Maybe we're meant to be this way

I cried before i made that decision,
bcos of what?

Do u know?

And do u figure out why?

Maybe we're meant to be this way.

You were someone so much more than just important in my life,
You're just like a baby sister to me.

But the accuses that u written out,
Seriously cut my heart..
And clearly shows that u still dunno the reason why..
What causes all these..

Maybe we're meant to be this way

You said you care,
You said you understand me.

That's what hurts me.

Maybe we're meant to be this way

It's hard for me,
To take this path.

All the facts,
seems like telling me that maybe we're just meant to be this way.

I did love u,
In fact that i still do..
But I'm just a little too tired for all of this.

A very hard decision

"Sad piano play,
Made me cry.

How can i be so stupid all the while,
In believing miracles in friendship to some who is not up for it.

I've forgotten how many nights missing u, wanting u to know my lately,
U always not there for me.
I've forgotten how many messages I've sent out,
But there's always without any reply,
Though, i know u will never reply, cos i know u.

Cos i was still believing in us.
Our friendship.

Hoping one day u will be there for me.

Today
I'd made a very hard decision
That I'm leaving.

Of cos, i still know what happen next.
But are u for serious this time?

Doubtful."

Today, i finally understand. Don't simply take one person out from the group n treat that person as a friend. Cos that might turned out to be a very lethal weapon to ur heart n soul. I've die trying, n failed about accepting how u treating a friend is like.

What a friend knows? Yes, one friend's attitude.

Now I'm giving u a hint, or u can just say it's a big lesson :)

Some human can tolerate whatever a friend treat them, n some amount, just like me, they just like a piece of mirror, how u treat them, they uses the same way to treat u back. Fair n square~ right? :) And when that happen, that's the ending :) And all i can tell u is, I did love u, but I deserve a better friend. So long, n wish u have a better day in future.

Now, whoever read this, take this as a sign, n be good to your friends b4 any mess become mess-ier :)

ＣＯＤＥ ＲＥＤ

ＣＡＴＣＨ　ＭＥ，　ＷＨＩＬＥ　Ｉ　ＳＴＩＬＬ　ＣＡＲＥ．
ＢＥ　ＷＩＴＨ　ＭＥ，　ＷＨＩＬＥ　Ｉ　ＳＴＩＬＬ　ＣＡＲＥ．

ＯＮＣＥ　Ｉ　ＤＥＣＩＤＥＤ，
Ｉ　ＮＥＶＥＲ　ＧＯ　ＲＥＧＲＥＴ．

ＣＨＥＲＩＳＨ　ＭＥ，　ＷＨＩＬＥ　Ｕ　ＳＴＩＬＬ　ＣＡＮ．

抓紧我，当我还在乎时。
也和我一同走，当我还在乎时。

当我一决心，
我不会后悔。

当你还有机会时珍惜我。

What it used to be

Dun ever find some excuse for u to say me bad,
Dun ever make another drama to make me fall.

I had it enough.

What i said is truth,
What i did is the only way out without breaking anything.

Now I'm here to speak out loud,
n make it clear
There's no one caused me for holding myself from getting attached again~

the only thing that made me this way is love.
I've lost my faith in love.

I've lost my count on how many failure of love I've made.

Desperation kills.

I don't wanna keep repeating the same incident/failure again.
That's why i keep holding on.

Please accept the fact that we could only be just friends.

Nothing more
Nothing less

Please let what it used to be,
To stay always.

Boring Trip but I had my perfect rest~

At first, i tot it will be a very interesting trip for me~ mana tau~ my sis' house was far far far away from the city, some where before cyberjaya, a place where they call seri kembangan~ wasai~!!

So nvm~ In this trip~ i bought only few things~ A new sun glasses, a new cap, n also few knit wears from SEED~ the spec was so in my mind all the time after my friend's sister showed me at my comment section in friendster~ Of cos it's not the same, n i guess the price will be very different from the one that she showed me, but almost the same la :) N i love it very much~ now only i realized, i love specs~ This is what bought, it's from sg wang~ hehehhe~

how's that? does that make me looks like a handicapped person?LMFAO~*

So move on to the next thing, ok~ at last i reached my sis house~ n met my cute lil baby girl~ Iman~ heheh~ she is so cute~ but so bad la, this uncle ghab, dunno how to hold a baby, so "chor loh" made u cry nia...hahha.... but so nice la, when i see mom, which means her grandma holding her, she was like so manja~ n so baby~ hahah~ n made me flash back when i was young, being held by her, embraced by her, the feeling is so touching... Another thing, i'm so "beh song" la, even my 2nd sis, also know how to hold a baby... mah leh.. me very lame la~ hahha~ bad uncle ghab~ n these are the pics~

The grandma n the grandchild~

The Uncle n the niece~

The Aunt n The niece~


The last day at my sis house was the hardest day, cos have to say good bye to Iman d lo~ then hurriedly snap few more shots from her n also a video~ but so bad the video was unable to post up... so only can show the pictures of her~ :) ~ hehehhe~ Check it~ so cute~ ngek ngek ngek ngek ngek~*

Adorable~

My spec n her mum's~LOL

after sending my mom n sis up to the bus back to Kedah, my hometown~ next stop will be my friend's house n spend 2 days at his home doing nothing~ sweat... hahhaahha...

This is the guy who offer me a bed to sleep, a shelter to hide from wind n rain lo~ thx so much~ hehe~ n he is Dickson a.k.a. Ah Booy

And that is what's up with my KL trip... boring, but i had a long rest, a very long one.. hahhahah, long time din rest lu...~ n it was so amazing~ back to Penang now, n feel energetic~n fully charged~ hahahaha~ Soon i will get my next trip, dunno where, but it will still be in Malaysia~ ahhahah, no money is like that lo~ plus i haven't fully visit every state in Malaysia yet... So~ Malaysia~ here i come~ hehhee~^_^

End of the trip, this was snapped while on the way back to Penang, one of the perhentian in Ipoh.. i guess.. hahha, not sure where was that, cos that time was so dizzy~ hahha

Andrew the freebie~ Giving out free~!!

ok~ this post suppose to upload a week ago~ Just simply dun have the time to write bout this incident bout this lousy loser~ Drama King of MOMO all time~

Incident happened on 14th of August 2008, i think if mistaken, it was 4 in the morning~ Infront of MOMO~

Can u stand it for a loser which is SOOOOOOOOOOO into clubbing with us~ and drunk himselves everytime we get into the club together or without us, it's been times i scold him, and treating him like a trash~ But that loser just dun understand what i mean~ ok~ so that's it, over my limit again~ Then u just have to accept the actions i'm going to make, yes, bingo~ I slap someone again~ i slapped him infront of my friends~ SO? U dun respect us~ then y shud i respect u?

Look at these lame pictures, how do u feel?

What if we switching the position as u r me, how do u feel? He keep doing all these cheap actions, not once~! trust me~! it's everytime he in the club!!~ What he did? What he did? What he did? What he did?

Ok~here u go~ !!!!!!!!!!

1)Lay str8 infront of the club, entrance of the toilet
2)Knocking his head towards the walls, the chairs inside the club
3)The one thing i cant stand is, his act are more cheaper than the street whores, whores, only selling their body for money, n u? giving out free~ How cheap is that?

Haha~ now suddenly, muse came to me~ give me a new name inside my head~ Yes~!!i got new nickname for u, "Andrew the Freebie a.k.a. Drama King"

Labels Or Love, Big hint, big direction for me~

Big hint for my new level of my new life~I've been thinking for a damn long time, keep on searching for new love n keep on flirting n all~ what is fucking wrong with me? M i that desperate? Before this, ya~ m i that horny? Horny hmmm, maybe i'm~ LOL~ Which cat doesn't eat fish? n which guy doesn't get horny? So just like what Fergie advise~ Why we keep on shopping for love instead of shopping for branded stuffs n all? Of cos it's not bout the brandeds, she is talking about taking things slowly instead of rushing into black holes? rushing~They only hurt u at the end~

But in real, i mean the real Branded still sounds better~ Right? hahha~ So i'm taking things slowly~enjoy every moment of my shopping~Winks~~

I personally love this row~ "It's alot of men i know i could get another" which means i know there's a lot of ppl out there, n i know i could get a better one~


And this is the Lyrics i get from lyric-site, if can~ try to understand it~ it might gives u some direction to change the current way u look at L.O.V.E.~ Now presenting u this~ the lyric~

Fergie - Labels Or Love

Shopping for labels, shopping for love
Manolo and Louis, it's all I'm thinking of
Shopping for labels, shopping for love
1, 2
Manolo and Louis, it's all I'm thinking of
1, 2, 3 Turn the lights on.

I already know what my addiction is
I be looking for labels, I ain't looking for love
I shop for purses while love walks out the door
Don't cry, buy a bag and get over it
And, I'm not concerned with all the politics
It's a lot of men I know I could find another.

What I know is that I'm always happy when I walk out the store, store
I guess I'm Supercalifragi-sexy, nothing to be playing with
I love him, hate him, kiss him, diss him, tryna walk a mile in my kicks

[Chorus]
Love's like a runway but which one do I love more?
No emotional baggage, just big bags filled with Dior
Love's like a runway, so what's all the fussing for?
Let's stop chasing those boys and shop some more.
1, 2, 1, 2, 3, Turn the lights on.

I know I might come off as negative
I be looking for labels, I ain't looking for love
But, relationships are often so hard to tame
A Prada dress has never broke my heart before
And, ballin's something that I'm fed up with
I'mma do the damn thing, watch me do the damn thing
Cause I know that my credit card will help me put out the flames
I guess I'm Supercalifragi-sexy, nothing to be playing with
I love him, hate him, kiss him, diss him, tryna walk a mile in my kicks

[Chorus]
Love's like a runway but which one do I love more?
No emotional baggage, just big bags filled with Dior
Love's like a runway, so what's all the fussing for?
Let's stop chasing those boys and shop some more.
1, 2, 1, 2, 3, Turn the lights on.

Gucci, Fendi, Prada purses, purchasing them finer things
Men they come a dime a dozen, just give me them diamond rings
I'm into a lot of bling, Cadillac, Chanel and Coach
Fellas boast but they can't really handle my female approach
Buying things is hard to say
Rocking Christian Audigier, Manolo, Polo, taking photos in my Cartier
So we can't go all the way, I know you might hate it but
I'm a shop for labels while them ladies lay and wait for love

[Chorus]
Love's like a runway but which one do I love more?
No emotional baggage, just big bags filled with Dior
Love's like a runway, so what's all the fussing for?
Let's stop chasing those boys and shop some more.
1, 2, 1, 2, 3, Turn the lights on.

Shopping for labels, shopping for love
Manolo and Louis, it's all I'm thinking of
Shopping for labels, shopping for love
1, 2
Manolo and Louis, it's all I'm thinking of
1, 2, 3 Turn the lights on.

生活学论 - 数学题

1 + 1 是个很简单的数目题
有些人了解之中的原理
有些人却不会

我们的生活里
其实牵连很多数目的formula

假想，每个人的总数是 1 + 1 + 4999
你就是那个先的 1
而第二个 1 就是你的伴侣
而 4999 是在上天规定你在你生命中必须认识的人和朋友
假如有天 1 + 1 +（4998 - 1）
不就是少了一位朋友吗？
不久后，我很肯定
上天
一定会再加回另一个新人
还会比你少去那个人好
最后还是会 4998 + 1 啊

认识的每个人
都会带有不同的课程让你进修
让你成为更好更强的人

Rainy day, 2nd of September, year 2008

Whole day in my bedroom, doing nothing but watching stupid movies, then i keep download all sad chinese love songs... n i got no idea where the memories out come, made myself moody... feels like everything seems so fresh... the wounds, n the feelings... seems so new again... i can feel the pain when i touch it... m not making myself pathetic, just, all of sudden i feel my life is a disaster n it's so empty... Life without love, what is that shit? but in the same time, what is shit, if the life u have, is to be with someone who doesn't love u at all?

Lately alot of cheapskit i newly met... n some even hide in my msn list for a long time, all in a sudden come over n asking m i still available? since i just break up not long ago.. n the funny is, i din even try to fool them, o let them stay~ N the funny is, what i did wrong to made u missunderstood? How dare u accuse me for fooling u? All the while i treat u is like a friend.. nothing more nothing less.. but y? y u can say such thing to me? do u know how hurt is it to me? Some even funny... already attached, pls stay attached, dun say u like me o some so~ i'm not a toy o a back up ok?

So i took a deep breath, n think what can made me happy again? I str8 off from computer, n went downstairs to buy 2 pieces of cakes, 2 doughnuts, 6 pieces of mini tarts~.. of coz i'm not a blending machine, i just finished 2 cakes, n 2 mini tarts, save them for tomorrow's breakfast. I bought 2 cakes, bcos i din had any cake for 8th of July, my birthday~~So today is re-celebrating my bday~

*~happy birthday to me~*

But so far, my day havent bcos of 2 cakes n switch to happy mode... Too many things stuck in my mind, feel like my mind is going to burst... How can those who create life, created mine this way?

Is there anyone out sale their happy life? I'm willing to buy it...

你在我心裡打了死結, 綁住孤單 在我的世界(死結)

離不開的 卻離開
抓不住想抓的愛 怪自己活該

我的未來 你不來
我的故事很無奈 我注定失敗

我們的對話 你悄悄離了線
我們的熱線 今後斷了線
你在線的那邊 那麼遙遠
你說再見 宣判了終點

你在我心裡打了死結
綁住孤單 在我的世界
你帶走的快樂 我沒了知覺
一個人面對每個日夜

你在我心裡打了死結
綁住孤單 在我的世界
找不到你的我 已失去一切
我們的愛已無法脫險 你打了死結

無心傷害卻傷害
空白以後才明白 原來這是愛

你的心我最能猜
你的愛我被淘汰 我注定悲哀

我們的對話 你悄悄離了線
我們的熱線 今後斷了線
你在線的那邊 那麼遙遠
你說再見 宣判了終點

你在我心裡打了死結
綁住孤單 在我的世界
你帶走的快樂 我沒了知覺
一個人面對每個日夜

你在我心裡打了死結
綁住孤單 在我的世界
找不到你的我 已失去一切
我們的愛已無法脫險

你打了死結 你打了死結

Clubbing Incidents : One of the Chapters : What m i?

U can say me selfish,
U can say me bad.

What i did was what a friend shud do

Drunk urself is not the only choice
to be in club
to drink
and to celebrate

Limitation is a must

Some say
A friend shudn't care that much
as long as his friend is happy.

But i disagree.

What If everytime u hang around,
all u can see is ppl around u
ppl who u cares
just kneel down n throw up
mostly everytime?

How will u feel?

And It will be not as easy as u say

not to care
n not to advice
just keep ur fingers on ur own phone's key.
and pretending not to see what happening?

What m i?
If i cant do what a friend shud do?

The Light

Been thru so much joy n also so much hurt
Do u think i can possible to love someone in such a short time again?

I've been a fool for so many time,
Not blaming again,
Of cos,
I also hurt someone i love so much before,
because of my jealousy,
and also anxiety..
I love my love to hang around most of time
this is how i feel secured

Love
is an uneasy thing for me

always stress me up
n always tear me apart

Now I'm collecting all the shattered pieces
slowly n slowly
glue it together
cos the environment is too dark

If u able to bring a light
then only i will make the glue-process in high speed~ haha

but so far, none.
so i got plenty of time to work on it
until i found u again

The Light

Ya, it's 1885... Shitty Night~

Fuck is all i can say, after whole day of stupid customers servicing, finally i can get home n rest... before i was gone to my lovely bath, my standing fan was alive... after that, while blowing my hair with my hair dryer.. my god damn standing fan went poof~ DEAD..

What the... it was 11:15pm... what m i gonna do? What can i do? If it was happened yesterday(Saturday) sure i wont going to fuck this n that, cos the hypermarket - Tesco running til 1am...Shit shit shit n shit....now it's already 1:48am.. n i'm still awake.. n warm like hell... yes, i took second bath.. but still fucking same... duh~ hate the weather in Malaysia...

After cursing n all, finally i can get to calm a bit then i prepare myself a glass of cold choc, a pack of biscuits, n start to write a blog to complaint bout my shitty night... not long ago, my fucking housemate bang n damaged his fucking door.. pissed~!! of cos, cos if he doesn't fix that, our deposits will be "bye bye"... OK, fuck him~ Now all i can think about is, how m i going to survive tonight.. then i went Google search for some bed time story~ n the story was about electric fan~

The very first fan was created in year 1886, ha ha.. n felt like, I'm living in fucking year 1885... yes, right b4 the fan was created..

How can people stand their nights without fan before 1886????!!!!!???

Ha ha, at this very moment, suddenly felt like taking this opportunity to thank An American engineer, Dr. Schuyler Skaats Wheeler, who invented the electric fan in 1886 n made this world a cooler place~

p/s : i was trying to look for his picture n his very first electric fan in 1886, but failed to get... sianz... so~ this is it~ Lazy to continue this topic... n kinda happy... finally i get some sleepy-ness~ n it's 2:31am~ ya, fuck the life~ tomorrow still have to work even though i cant sleep without fan... so i better off now try myself hard to get into sleep lu~ hahha~ ciaoz.. n love y'all~

我们的宝贝，小蠻。/ Our baby Princess, Iman

When i see ur smile / 当我见到你的笑容
My Heart really sweeten up / 我的心真的很开心的
Then at the same time, I smile / 跟着，我的脸也微笑起来
And i hardly wait to see you / 真的很想现在就搭飞机去见你
Give u a kiss on ur forehead / 然后亲吻你的额头……
I wonder what reaction will u give me by then.. haha / 在幻想着，那时你会给我什么反应呢？哈
Cry o smile? / 是哭？还是笑？
Really can't wait to see u~ / 真的很迫不及待了～

Man~, she really have my sis look~ haha so cute~ Especially the way she stare~ hehehe / 哇噻，他真的很有我姐的风范～尤其是那瞪人的表情～超可爱～哈哈

近期的我 / Lately

我发觉到 / I feel that..
我变了许多 / I've changed alot
可能人生的不利 / Might be the failures in my life
也有可能岁月的增长吧 / or maybe it's because i'm getting older n older

很多事情都出乎我们的预料 / A lot of things were out of our control

人见多了 / Seeing too many shitty people
对人的看法也不样了 / affected my judgment to everyone


话语 / People's word
我也不会再去多信 / I won't be memorizing them anymore
听过就够了 / Everything will be using my new way to handle, LISTEN n ERASE

教训 / Advice?
更不用多说 / Don't!
我会翻脸给你看 / I'll definitely fuck u off!

最近的我 / Lately
让我自己也捉不着 / I start to doubt
我是谁 / Who m i？
我再也不明了 / But my answer never out.. n i think i should keep this way

A massacre i held

Never knew i would hurt like this,
Even never knew i could hurt someone like this.

At first,
Evrything seems so calm n peaceful.

The next thing i know,
I had a plan to sweep off one person.

And I succeeded.

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There's 2 things in mind.
1) I will not able to be friend with that bitch again.

- Who give a fuck at it? Since he doesn't even have the will to stay as friend. Then why shud i? Now i believe, how much u love someone, n when ur love turned to hate, it will be as much as how u love him. One person's wrath, can be so grateful, when u finally know the reason.

2)I will draw someone i care, sengzzai, the one i mentioned earlier? the author that i never met.. away from me..

- i hang a while.. keep on asking myself... is it worth it? Again n again, i was confused a long time... but then all burst out after the situation get worse.. Then i asked myself again, is it worth it? The answer came out, Yes it's worth it. But it doesn't mean he is a just stepping stone to revenge.... cos i care bout him will getting the same situation i'm having now..

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It's hard for me to decide this, but i took the risk...

Now everything turned out to be exact what happened in my mind, everyone left. The curtain had closed, i din win anything, indeed, i dun plan to win either. I just want everything bout that bitch to end... n neutral my life to back to normal... but not him... I regret, cos i left out one thing,that his happiness... I had killed it... made him left in tears...

But things already a truth, i can't change the history anymore... all i can do is keep watching n watching how his life after this...

All i can do now, is to tell u i'm sorry..

小野猫的本性

小野猫的本性就本来是一个见人就靠过去的。

只要有人稍微对它热情点，
搔搔它的下巴，
它就会对你发娇了。
然后密上他的眼睛，
假装可爱，
加上那对装可怜的眼睛，
有谁不死在他手里？
当你没有利用价值了，
扫扫屁股，
就走人了。
很讽刺吧？
这就是小野猫的本性了。
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接下来，好一个部落格 - “痕”
让我来为你们解答

“我就是扮可怜 我就是装无辜 我就是无理取闹 我就是故意让人注意我

你猜对了 我就是这样 你赢了 狠狠的在我这里种下了一个大疤痕

成功的让对我很重要的两个人 在我们之间留下了大隔膜

七月半 我的报应到了”

你到现在还不肯认罪吧？也对，硬着头皮说自己没罪，人家见你的坚持，就会相信你没罪的了。这是我在一个16岁的女孩身上看到的。别跟我说，你的思想和一个16岁的女孩没两样！

还有呢，别诬赖我，我并不是瞎猜的，而我是有眼看的，还是用我眼泪换来的。

大疤痕？我并没有那么大的本事为你种下那条东西。假如真的有，就当是我为你庆祝关于你被拆穿了吧。

那两个人，你还不是骗我般的为他们说bedtime story吗？

你们的隔膜，与我无关，它是一直都在！因为你不曾赤裸裸的对他们坦白，用真心来对待。你的也并不是报应，而是因果。

最后，你对谁说大家心知肚明？要明的，应该会是你自己吧？

心型拼图

心型拼图完整了

放了哦～

发泄完咯

松啊～

爽

哈哈～

Forgiveness

I'm collecting myself back,

starts from the littlest thing.
Expanding my friends circle,
decreasing my fiend list.

2 little word,
without a "R"
And with a "R"
the meaning is so big difference

I started to understand,
Life is not all about love.
But at the same time,
I'm not giving up on Love.
I'm not a monk~ haha..


The truth is,
When love is lost,
We still go to friends.


Friends are cure to love cuts.
And also companion in lifetime,
and true friends wont hurt us.
although they're not effective enough to fully cure u,
But they always be there when u need someone.
And this is the point i missed..all these while
I keep searching for my perfect match
until i left my friends aside.


then comes the heart breaking scene
made me fall once n once, again n again
then only go to friends.

I laughed at myself at this moment,
now only i know how naive n stupid i m to believe in love is everything.

I'm collecting everything back now
to be a better man in future

And hoping for everyone's forgiveness
for hating them all these while,
and also being mean all the time to them.


And for those who can't accept my apologies
Then sorry again that i can't beg u on my knees for the forgiveness like a dog :)
Because I'm a human :)

123木头人，我输了

星期六，当我和10个朋友在clubbing时纷纷都醉了，有些失踪的时候

你对我诉说，关于你的病情时
什么心情都没了，虽然我们刚刚认识
但是我们很像认识蛮久了的朋友

那时我又再怪上天了
为什么派我们来到这个世界
就不能好好的给我们健康？
那么的吝啬

她很坚强

反而我在抱她的那时
流了一行泪
但是在她没发现之前给擦了
因为我不想被她看到伤心
她有病也活得那么快乐
像我这样的
分手罢了嘛
有什么大不了？
我应该活得更好的



分叉路，再次出现了。
我也选了
我走另一条了
因为我在这里等
日晒雨淋
还是始终被冷对待。。
囊成今天的我


因为没进展
我就责怪自己
屈着屈着
有时还会发很大很大的脾气
就像在同一天
和店的客人
吵到很大
还差点打了起来
连做工的朋友看了都傻眼
哈哈，失礼了啦


可能这次的离开
会是一个很好的教训
并不是我不爱你了
而是我真的很辛苦，很累
我会记得你
会记得这画面
让我记得该怎样去面对下次爱情来的时候


怎样找回我自己？
我想快乐
我真的很想
有谁拥有那些吃了会忘记伤痛变得很快乐的药？
我真的想买


那女生
我看她应该到新加坡了吧
也应该进院了吧

祝你病情快点好起来。
也祝我自己快点好起来。

我姐生蛋了

很多朋友都不知道我家的家姐结了婚，也没太多的人知道我姐怀了孕，连我们也是在他怀胎的第七个多月时才知道的。劲吧？哈哈，因为她了解纸是包不住火的。最后咬着牙根，硬着头皮也终于跟我们说了出来。他，我的姐夫是个马来人。没错，我头先对他不是很有好感的，因为说到尾还不是一个马来人！但是到了第一次接触他的人很nice，又gentleman,还是白白的呢～还蛮帅的～哈哈～还有最重要的是，他有“5c”

credit card
cash
car
condo
career

最好笑的是，我之前还梦见我姐，改名为Fatimah!!!超级难听，在梦里还喊了很大声，“hah!!” 但幸好，我姐和她的丈夫都没有那么“liong”～他们因为蛮喜欢“bewitched”里的女主角的名-Arisa，所以就加上了～她的名现在叫做，Jamie Arisa Ooi Abdullah了。蛮喜欢的～嘿嘿嘿～



这就是我和他们的合照


还有这就是我侄女，小mun，全名Nurul Iman, Iman的意思叫做缘分。



姐，别担心，爸那边，我会摆平的～*因为我们流的都是同样的血！加上，你不是说了吗？他们都很谈得来……可能爸只是一时而已啦～Jamie，Jaszeshing, Jeffrey, Ghabryal & Joseph都是爸妈的的骨肉！切肉不离皮！爱你哦～这就是我今年的最好的礼物～

病了啦 + 新照片-题目 ：为爱革命

shit的，生病了啦！他妈的，吊吖～可能太凶酒了吧。。哈哈。。自己拿来衰的，那天因为个人的感情问题关系吧，两三天连续没睡～身体的抵抗能力就慢慢衰弱咯～天气也是个元素吧，还有，最近做工的地方sipeh冷。。。哇髙噻～就着凉了，伤风加上点点的烧。。到今天还是一样，一捆一捆的厕纸给我浪费掉。。看了都傻眼，今天应该是第六捆了吧。。。浪费了厕纸，但是省了电～哈哈，晚上可以不用开风扇呢！凄凉凄凉哦～没人疼～但是没关系啦，不会死掉的啦！！嘿嘿，我可是有个花名叫超级龟咧～Super Turtle可不是浪得虚名的～*

对了对了，还有这些是我newly edit的照片，谢谢光临哦～



为爱革命 ：有时沉默是金


为爱革命 ：为爱呐喊，我爱你

为爱革命 ：复杂化的圈子


为爱革命 ：听不是事实




不好意思，献丑了～

火山爆发之重出江湖momo记！

一切都变了吧，ex也将要结婚了，还一直呆在club。和别人搂搂抱抱，也不算什么了，最衰是，还站在我以前喜欢的人，一个无聊的贱物！！！假假喝醉了，搂别的男生，你知不知丑啊？难怪你会有那么的多人插！！幸好我不曾插你！！弄衰我自己的性器官！！！这些也算了，momo真的变了，有点失望呢。。。可能客人越来越复杂化了吧，竟然我们付的酒竟然给他妈的没钱，cheap精马来人给偷了，马来人真的是很cheap！！！装假狗来骗第二round！！假假跟我们cheers，还不是拿我们的酒？他妈的，头一次算了，竟然不识泰山！！！惹我发火～！！！哇唠呃！！我当然不会放过惹事的东西，因为我真的想找死！！！怎样？还厉害的是，一波接一波，一个丑八怪，竟然来惹我的朋友，这样犯贱，你家没有墙壁吗？那么hiao，为什么不干脆去lu piak？矮又矮过我，连丑也丑过人，我的朋友，摆明都不喜欢你，干嘛还要粘着？你妈没有叫你不要那么hiao吗？真的是家教无妨！！对，我就是要干你老妈！他妈的，就是有你这样的贱货，P才会沦落到此地！！让人家有了一个坏的印象！！枉你活这一生！！浪费你爸的精神，你爸的精子，你妈的卵子，你妈的阴道，你妈的九个月！！你真的是很sia sui你家里的人！ 你要，就做一个让人家敬佩的P，好玩的P，而不是贱货！！！说真的，刚刚还真的惹起事来，手指指，指向他那个肉脸！！要给他知道我不是好惹的！！

一想到贱货。。很多事。。甜，但是伤心的事，一连一的驾到了。。

对，我同时也感到我自己羞耻，因为爱到的全部都是贱货！！！真正爱我的，却是我不想再重复的恋情！！！我真的好累，也不想再谈恋爱了，人终是失去了再想回味，才来觉得你自己好！！我恨我自己太爱你，我恨我自己太重感情，我也恨我自己口是心非。我还爱你，但是你知道吗？你再也不了解了。因为你的一句《所有都是过去了，已经无所谓了，我不会后悔我选的路向》时，我才知道，我自己是有多无聊，有多天真！！

借酒消愁真的是用不着！醉后，你的感情越不能骗人。

好啦好啦，发完牢骚了。我的醉意。。还不到一半呢。。心痛到不能再说话了，只好用笑来对待我的朋友。

胜仔，我没哭。别担心。时间久了，会把一切都冲谈的。

没想到最希望去的地方，却让我深深的受伤。。

我已经很努力的去放松自己了，但到头来，我还是那么的无知！！原来还一直在骗自己！！

没有那么多的爱，哪有恨？爱与恨之间，只是一线之差！！

我还爱你，你是否还存着你我的回忆？


刚刚还无聊到，在车上拍照呢，花絮在上咯～更多上展，多多支持哦～～

不说了，还是让我的脑休息下吧。。心痛，脑痛，什么都痛。。

无聊。。白痴！！

Pasar Malam~* Yay~

it's been a while i din go for shopping, haha, n kinda funny i found pasar malam things are more nicer than what selling in malls, cos u know why? why we have to pay more for something that is the same? For example : - my latest favourite.

guess how much did i pay for this precious? The answer is~ only RM10!! What? i know it's only cheaper RM10, so? Do u know how much we can do with the 10 bucks? U can go for a meal at McD for christ sake~!! N done a lot researches~ it's going to be hot in town~ I just love the retro hits~ yaya~ i'm one of the freaks~

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next stop~* Momo Tonight~* see u there with my new image bah~*

Ciaoz~*


P/S : Thanks to Venus for everything she had said to me~* I will try my best to memorized everything, to prevent things happen again for up coming days.